Sunday, March 06, 2005
i feel lyk im taken for granted....at least i tink...u c...hmmz...y....ppl onli tok to me wen tey feel lyk it....tey onli tok to me wen tere iz nobodi else to tok to....tey dun include me in tings....tey onli ask me 4 sumtin wen tey nid it...and if i dun haf or wad i will be lyk invisible to tem...tey wun noe if i m sad or wad coz i hide tem inside me....i haf no1 to tell mi worries mi troubles to....coz if i tell tem to sum ppl...tey will laff and tink tat shiyeng iz so emotional so sensitive so........i dunoe......juz wun rili take mi troubles to heart...wun rili confort me...juz go in e right ear and go out e left ear....i guess e ppl whom haf not done tis so far iz shifu,natz and socks bahx...haiz....and m i sure mi frenz neva badmouth me...neva stab me in e back neva betray me....well i duno...haiz...i tink mi parents take me 4 granted too....tey r lyk 'shiyeng! help me do tis! do tat!'.....i wunder if 1 dae im not tere wad would tey do...hmmz...and i cant seem to bear to tell mi troubles to mi parents too...juz feel lyk tere's a wall blockin us...haiz...since im so taken 4 granted....so invisible....i tink i can juz disappear frm tis world??i dun tink ani1 would even notice im not tere....yups....mayb i shouldnt 'can' disappear frm tis world...i tink i muz disappear frm tis world.......
or mayb i take ppl 4 granted??i dunoe.......confused,sad,frusrated me....
[i dun tink i can hold on ani longer....]
or mayb i take ppl 4 granted??i dunoe.......confused,sad,frusrated me....
[i dun tink i can hold on ani longer....]
what we could have been, 6.3.05.
